Lyrics, Lamentations & Love Songs*

Crush the bones within me Press my center until I bleed The world spinning around me  Tries to take away  my belief I need you more deeply Than I ever have Dear Lord Every time I cry out I beg you for more  Peace More love More of your breath upon my skin Strength like that  of Sampson Before his arrogance did him in Hold me Close to your chest Help me find the place Where you bring rest  And not from some epic journey There is no pilgrimage I need to take Help me rend my spirit and simply call your name When the dark Closes in When I stumble And forget But how can I forget? It’s when the shadows of my past Haunt me again Take this meager offering In the quiet, early morn  Hear me You have done so much I just need you still, I need you more  I will face the day ahead  With all that comes my way Hopeful, in each moment You hear me as I pray Protect this small child Walking in the body of a man I may seem so upright -  Inside I’m just trying to...

Silent night on Christmas Eve Soul, it sings a mournful melody Emotions worn and spirits wain Soon it will be Christmas Day But as so many see the joy -  I’m struggling inside to keep the hope I know you bring Keep on trying but lonely seems  to be My place tonight On a very, Silent Night. 12/24/25 clc

I guess I thought  I’d grow up  Find my way And all I’d known Would be found  In the simple Yet, that’s not the way It’s gone The simple comes easy  Like mornings when  The day is slow But I sit here  With my coffee Wondering where I went wrong  I guess I thought  Yeah, I thought a lot Moments like today Just another day Well, that’s not true Alone in my thoughts Wishing I wasn’t But that my truth Going to move Going to do my day Yet, my heart Feels so heavy Guess this is the way  It hurts  Really hurts  Why am I here Looking at the world <sigh> I guess I thought 12/24/25 clc

I am nothing Save the breath I breathe  And even that comes From the air I receive From you I am tainted In flesh, in skin You somehow Still lean in And love Me You are rooted  In the sun and stars I look up Still afraid and scarred  And sigh Why? You could Love me. I am less  than most You still pursue me Even when  I’m my worst I don’t need angels Don’t ask for a sign Just the hope that comes After a long hard cry That remains Through life Through hard Through pain I am nothing Yet you remain. 12/23/25 clc “I am also your Shepherd, Companion, and Friend—the One who never lets go of your hand. come close to Me, and rest in My Presence.” ~ Jesus Calling, December 23rd “Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”” Matthew‬ ‭11‬:‭29‬-‭30‬ ‭NASB1995‬‬

Rising Star Ignite the night Turn the dark to day Hear the echoes  of a thousand angels Singing “This is the way” Come in a boy A child A lowly one Born amongst the hay Awake the day  Preparing the way Our souls  So lost to this and that The hurry and the ‘go’ Falling into the traps the world pushes us toward How do we slow Our breathing  Our expectations Our very desperate need And lift our heads toward heaven When often we can’t see The light Dimmed from all the world tries to hide Our hearts grow heavy Yet, the burden  can be light If we know the yoke  we carry Isn’t ours If we give it up and let his shine We might be on the brink  of destruction We might find our hearts feel torn into We feel pressed  on all sides Yet hope still Comes through The night As the light Pierces through… 12/22/25 clc “because of the tender mercy of our God, by which the rising sun will come to us from heaven to shine on those living in darkness and in the shadow of ...

Sanity… For some comes easy Others of us Have to fight the noise The voices that skew our vision Block out the sun as We raise our voice And fear our shouts  Will continue to fall Upon deaf ears Wrecking our insides With our own silent fears Breadcrumbs  From the table  of the noble’s feast Our slender threads Hold us As we cry  ourselves to sleep Seeking what others seem to hold Without the terror That thrashes at our souls Yet we seek We still believe That deeper inside There will be peace And sanity. 12/17/25 clc 

We are not a city on a hill We are the saved among the slums Is it our purpose to sit and fill Or should we walk amongst  those who seem done? White washed and clean Why does it seem We set ourselves higher Without even to mean? Yet, we do The dirty and the downtrodden And all their residue Seems to turn our heads But weren’t we called  to rise up instead? And show that with  A voice, a touch, a deed There is more out there  than their needs Yet, we defend our stance  In boxes and principalities While those who truly need us  sit and weep Or more than that,  they boil with an anger deep Why do we separate When we were taught  Not to hate Not to fear Not to turn our heads Not to let money, capitalism, greed  be our voice? What is your choice? 12/16/25 clc

What if we could keep Those simple promises Found deep And rise up  Shine what’s inside Would our light so shine? Would we be ashamed to show? All that resides Within our thoughts  And in those dreams Do they open up our hearts  or make us scream Never know What the person beside Has going on Or if they hide In the dark What about our part? It’s not just sitting on a hill Frolicking in the knowledge We need to dwell Among others  Who share our need To be open to all we see We cannot hide Even deep inside At some point the light will find Our souls  And all will be known From the smallest imperfection To the dross that burns a hole Down to our feet We’ll be seen  One day Either here Or off in eternity… 12/16/25 clc “Arise, shine; for your light has come, And the glory of the Lord has risen upon you. For behold, darkness will cover the earth And deep darkness the peoples; But the Lord will rise upon you And His glory will appear upon you.” “No longer will you...

When they hurt We feel it When they bleed  Our hearts bleed too I’m moments when they’re quiet And we don’t know what to do We sit in apprehension  We worry and we pray  Our hearts raise up to heaven These beings  We’ve helped make And sigh  We realize They’re early in this journey And it’s a long road ahead They fight with what’s around them All the thoughts inside their heads The many voices  the world tells them Fills them up with lies We just pray the truth Will come clearly Before their eyes And we cry As we realize We can’t control the future For them, not even for us We can only beckon The one who shields us With his love We rise And realize The truth is greater And we give them up As hard as it is It’s not our cup Sigh Dear Lord, Open up their eyes. 12/10/25 clc

(sometimes) wake a little lonely stirring in my heart stings  gentle reminders  from all the time before me take a breathe just try to be it isn’t easy to find peace when I’ve known so much of that other thing (yet I still try to believe) that there’ll be a day  when all the wandering  when all the time taken to find myself might open and reveal all this  that surrounds me will show that it is real (not that I doubt all that we feel) it’s just (sometimes) I wake a little lonely eight years on my own makes somedays a little too real and I feel 12/09/25 clc

Looking up Into the heavens End of Night Before the Dawn Finding refuge In my coffee Sitting still With a deep yawn  Seeking solace As my spirit starts to wake Knowing I am So small Amidst all that swirls  at break of day The universe seems distant Like the stars that soon will fade I take another sip Rising to shower Knowing my way Will be full of all The trappings We humans fall into And enjoy Lost so easily Is the hope Covered by all the noise Take a breath Wait… Knowing There’s another way Your ways are higher I look to the skies But really just need to listen And find the wonder in my eyes Your Spirit is alive Amidst the miles that lay ahead And will be with me Until I lay my head Back down to sleep Counting sheep I call out Wondering if you’re near Silly after all these years You’d think I’d remember all the clear Reminders of your breath Whispered in my ear All the times I’ve heard you Amidst times of joy And deepest fear I stop this morning And recognize Thankful for t...

You Love me in the mornings When my soul, barely awake Restless in my core Feel my body shake I am lonely But I know I’m not alone Often wonder What it’s like to feel ‘home’ Tears stream down In these emotions I almost drown Somber Without a reason The world would understand Just the weight I carry Burden I have to lay down Each day I wake I hope for it to ease And many days  He gives that gift to me But I wrestle I fight My spirit Knows my life Depends on breath From the only place That brings rest… <breathe> 12/01/25 clc The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness.” Jeremiah 31:3