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Lay Down My Armor

  I lay down my armor Worn it for too long The battle isn’t over But I can’t go on The weight of that metal Forged of my regrets Tucked inside the boy I knew Who didn’t have the chance Held me captive For all those years I was fighting the enemy That sat between my ears And like David faced the giant He didn’t go in alone Called out to the maker Let his God be known “Oh, God Let it be known I cannot face my enemy Without you, because I lack power over the darkness But I know you are where I’m at And I will not go silent Though for years that’s all I knew I call out, ‘please, dear God I put my trust in you’” The battle still rages And I sit and say a prayer For peace within the struggle Knowing that you are there. 11/13/26 clc
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Regardless

  Regardless Of the anger within Finding myself seemingly Lesser than All the expectations The hoops to jump through I hate their religion I just want you I am not satisfied With the constructs they made It wasn’t their rules Where I was saved I may bristle and bark But I’m not a dog I am his child He knows my heart Amidst the terrors That they’ll never see I still reach out And I hope he sees Me. 11/12/26 clc
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Open My Eyes

My spirit is not well,  but I know where I run The arms of the father  The hope he began Open my eyes Tired and sore Let them see heaven Help me once more Not that I’m ready To come on home But here I find pain And I know where I belong So take each tear offering As the rivers that run Tell of my weakness And declare I’m not done Just walking through sadness  Knowing I remain Here amidst the hard Waiting on the day You call out to me “Son, it’s time” 11/11/26 clc “I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened, so that you will know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the surpassing greatness of His power toward us who believe. These are in accordance with the working of the strength of His might which He brought about in Christ, when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places,” ‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭1‬:‭18‬-‭20‬ ‭NASB1995‬‬
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Reaching out for Hope

  Deep within my spirit Where my words dare not go In the caverns of my loneliness Those places in my soul Born in darkness yet saved by light Where I can’t comprehend the thoughts Beyond any grasp of reason Where my nature has often fought Lies the secret of my humanity The frailness bound to this divide And in this, my insanity Heaven tugs As dark tries to hide For I am lost And I acknowledge That I can’t do this on my own As darkness pulls at my sanity I call out to the only home I’ve known < Reaching out for hope > 11/05/26 clc “In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words; and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” Rom...
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More a sinner than a Saint

More a sinner than a Saint I still wear this worldly taint Lost my religion But found my faith That’s the funny thing with Grace Stopped hearing the lies Once I heard the truth Started opening the good book more And turning off the news Seems I’m built for bigger things Even when I feel so small But that’s often what being human means I’m not lost I’m not blind I see the way my steps Grow easier when I step in time To the one Who walked before I breathe easier When in trust him more Cause I’m still more a sinner Than a Saint And I don’t worry about Being any other way Than the way I was made to be Take a moment A big breath And just be… 11/02/26 clc
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Thirsty

Thirsty While drowning Can’t fill the emptiness What matters? Alone Amidst the crowd Silence While screaming aloud Where do I run? Where do I hide? When this world Seems so scary outside Fear  Though I stand as if strong  Not sure Where I belong Until I lost All that I was And the Spirit Spoke to these bones “Get up Take up your mat It’s time to surrender Right where you’re at” Where do I run? Where do I hide? To the hope  I find inside This heart. 10/31/26 clc “Now on the last day, the great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, “If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scripture said, ‘From his innermost being will flow rivers of living water.’ ”” John‬ ‭7‬:‭37‬-‭38‬ ‭NASB1995‬‬
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Weary

When I’m weary Lost in my own dismay Feeling the weight Surround me as I pray Oh, God deliver me From within my own head Remove the hardness That suffocates me with dread I whisper soft Not knowing if you’ll hear Desperate in my spirit Take away this fear… 10/29/26 clc “fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. For consider Him who has endured such hostility by sinners against Himself, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.” ‭‭ Hebrews‬ ‭12‬:‭2‬-‭3‬ ‭NASB1995‬‬
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