Lyrics, Lamentations & Love Songs*

How do I worship you? With every breath I breathe What song in my lungs? Not a hymn or some righteous cackling Everywhere I go I feel the pressure try to crush Though if I stop and listen I can feel your touch Not in a box Not on the stage But in misty mornings When I feel the rage Of living in skin So far from the divine Just hoping you hear me One more time As I praise you with mumbling Through fallen tears  That’s how I worship you Amidst all my fears That’s when I know And I grow Hopefully, closer to you 08/12/26 clc

Sometime it’s the silence That seems so fucking loud When everything is quiet Alone with thoughts, that’s where I’ve found My soul opens to the promise I’ve heard so many times But even in salvation, I still struggle deep inside Not with man, not with substance, Though I lived there far too long I struggle with this deity That I love, singing his song Cause even those of us who wander Are not always truly lost Some of us just meander through Exploring the world, and that can cost A price I know I don’t owe anymore Though the hurts may sting at times But they are not my burden If I will just stop and take the time To raise my hands to heaven, Or fall down in the mud Realizing I’m not enough That’s where I often get stuck Because I was taught I needed to do more,  I needed to be pure I needed to sing But the words weren’t always present,  or the music just too deafening To truly let him love me Yet recently I find more and more That’s the only solution Church Hurt sucks And I im...

“ You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.” ‭‭James‬ ‭2‬:‭19‬ ‭NIV‬‬ Even the demons believe And shudder at the thought  Of all the winds that carry Each moment we have sought God amongst the chaos When we’re lonely and can’t see The Earth may not see his presence But when we earnestly believe We hurl missiles at the devil By the power of the blood We regain our footing, As he shows us his love Let his love rain down Let us open up our eyes For all that he has done Whether scene or in disguise We know a beautiful secret One we should share That in the moments we are hurting He is infinitely aware And doesn’t run from our iniquities He holds tight when we can’t stand When our souls seem to be burning He calls the winds at his command To give us peace To ease our doubts As we fall down to our knees Trying to sort it all out But we can’t We just have to believe And shudder in the presence of a God who breathes His life into us 08/04/26 clc

‘Come to me and drink You tired and thirsty soul I am the one who anoints within  I can make you whole  And when you lay down That heavy yoke That binds you to this world And truly let it go I will give you All you need Like the farmer gives the earth It’s seed See how it grows Within your heart  With the beauty Only I impart Come to me Come to me And as the spirit grows From the depths of where you’ve been Keep this process a reminder Of the pain and suffering That I release As you grow Your spirit soars As you learn to let go and Come to me’ 08/02/26 clc “Now on the last day, the great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, “If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scripture said, ‘From his innermost being will flow rivers of living water.’ ”” John‬ ‭7‬:‭37‬-‭38‬ ‭NASB1995‬‬ ““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble ...

for Topher Little boy, you don’t know Each thought (of you)  that fills my mind Like a night just after sunset A thousand stars filling the sky Each star a different memory Like summer wishes come true Each time I take a moment And think of you When I miss you most I think of those stars  and I hold on tight To each and every moment As if I was right by your side. I love you Topher! Dad 07/25/26 clc

I fight  What’s within me  That pulls me to the dirt The lies and past reminders Those puss filled sores and hurts Opening my eyes to heaven Though I still don’t understand  How the maker of the universe  Would take notice of this small man And yet I pray  Streaming tears Lord, take away these fears That rise like a volcano Ready to spew out all my hope Storms that remind me I am never enough Oh, are you near  I beg you Please hear  my prayer. 07/20/26 clc