Lyrics, Lamentations & Love Songs*

‘You are the God  Who sees me’ You pierce the dark within You know my inhibitions  You know exactly when My heart is hurting You know when the enemy Has me ready to tumble You see when I face defeat Yet, I still try to hide And find my own way Through the storms I forget your name Thinking ‘I can do this’  In my arrogance  Feel like I’m being brave You wait You always patiently wait  And when I finally wither Find my footing is all but gone Realize you’ve been beside me Walking the path Waiting for me to call You wait You see me And you stay  And in this life  I’ve travelled There is only one truth I’ve known  It is the presence Of your spirit Always there  To guide me home Even when home Seems like some  Distant (Disney) fantasy I know there is something Out there Waiting for me You wait To guide me home. 08/30/25 clc “She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One ...

I’m here I haven’t gone anywhere I swear I just don’t understand What’s your plan? Tired of crying Pools along the floor I try to be hopeful Or maybe it’s the child in me Wanting more I know it’s not the end of me But that doesn’t mean I’m not facing the enemy You told me To love and to be kind And I still try… But I’m so tired The weight scares me Couldn’t sleep I know you are here Could you please ‘Think of me’ Feel forgotten Unless I match their plans And old wounds reopen  Long forgotten Now stand Right in front of me Would you bring a little relief? Please. 08/28/25 clc

The only thing that’s certain Other than the sun breaking night sky Is the assurance that is found  Knowing you’ll be by my side And just like clouds often shadow The rays that warm my face I have to put my faith In this thing you call your Grace The answers are sometimes clear As if you are speaking right in my ear But many times your whisper comes In the midst of all my fear And I have to dig deep To find the hope you’ve given me Not that it lie hidden You don’t play man-sized games You ask me to trust To stop and simply pray I know I try But I often still ask “Why?” Why am I so feeble? Why do I feel this pain? Why do I doubt you When you’ve rescued me over and over again? Because I still  often don’t see As if the sun didn’t rise and I lack belief Please, I am here And I need you  Desperately. 08/27/25 clc

See a firefly as the night sky Falls fast  upon the day  Stars are waiting,  Anticipating  to paint the sky  Under moon’s sway  The heat subsides  Ready for last light to fade and drift away… 08/24/25 clc

Search my heart And know the answers Before I can form the words You’re aware through every trial Of the places I hide my hurts The scars run deep Yet you keep Showing up when I’d rather hide There’s so much tenderness inside That I’d rather keep to myself You persist  Won’t let go when I  don’t even want help I’d rather hide You come right beside Wake up As I often do Slow moving Spirit feels slightly blue But the melancholy  I feel Isn’t make believe  It’s so real And you’re patient and kind With the heart that  often feels left behind Alone in my own skin You won’t allow me  to sink again  Even when I’ve tried Through a million tears cried You know my heart More than anyone You ‘know there’s good’ Even as I want to run From hurt, from pain From the manmade church You won’t leave me I know you’ve heard This fear, These thoughts  So many times I just want you to know I’m broken inside And need you here With me As I begin A new day Know me I pray....

Prayed ten times Ten times no word “Keep on praying” That’s what I heard From that country preacher In that little church “Go on, keep asking” Even though I thought it absurd How could my little voice Be recognized By the creator  Of the stars and skies? Answers never came Turned my back on those beliefs Until I was desperate And would finally do anything  You see, just asking Is never enough Need a kernel of faith When you lift that question up Nothing more than believing That your words Will find the ears of a God Bigger than your hurt Don’t need To be polished or pure Just a heart That’s endured Time seems desperate In our human eyes But it is infinite To the maker of those same skies So I prayed Once again This time longing For an end And it was granted But not the way I thought Everything changed And I was given  This thing called hope Out of a prayer I’d prayed so many times Came a journey That opened my eyes Yes, I still struggle I still face some of that same pain...

You didn’t  make it hard You gave us eternity And we just broke your heart You didn’t say -  “I curse you still” When we keep finding reasons  to turn from you And forget to Be still You didn’t make the day this way When tears run like a river You didn’t make the pain But I still wish You’d help me understand Why it hurts so hard As I’m trying to  Hear your plan But that’s the doubt in me Instead of hearing you I’m still stuck in my Pity party  I know you’re here I know you are I’m just trying so damn hard To breathe Please… Show me. 08/18/25 clc