Search Me - a Prayer

Search my heart

And know the answers

Before I can form the words

You’re aware through every trial

Of the places I hide my hurts


The scars run deep

Yet you keep


Showing up when I’d rather hide

There’s so much tenderness inside

That I’d rather keep to myself

You persist 

Won’t let go when I 

don’t even want help


I’d rather hide

You come right beside


Wake up

As I often do

Slow moving

Spirit feels slightly blue

But the melancholy 

I feel

Isn’t make believe 

It’s so real


And you’re patient and kind

With the heart that 

often feels left behind

Alone in my own skin

You won’t allow me 

to sink again 


Even when I’ve tried

Through a million tears cried


You know my heart

More than anyone

You ‘know there’s good’

Even as I want to run


From hurt, from pain

From the manmade church

You won’t leave me

I know you’ve heard


This fear,

These thoughts 

So many times

I just want you to know

I’m broken inside


And need you here

With me

As I begin

A new day


Know me


I pray.


08/24/25

clc


“O Lord, You have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; You understand my thought from afar. You scrutinize my path and my lying down, And are intimately acquainted with all my ways. Even before there is a word on my tongue, Behold, O Lord, You know it all.”

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Psalms‬ ‭139‬:‭1‬-‭4‬ ‭NASB1995‬‬


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