Cannot Be Silent


Cannot be silent

That comes with years I’ve tried

To be what someone wanted

It all ends in wordless lies


I’m not a bad man

I’m waiting, looking for my match

Not in some old fantasy

From 40 years back


I know I have a purpose

I know I long to be heard

Sometimes that comes with talking loud

And possibly seeming a little absurd


There is a deeper side

Where a hope still grows

Inside the cavern

Rests this lonely man’s soul


And I hurt

When I hurt others

I feel the sting 

When I do them wrong

I have beaten myself up

When I can’t be

Their picture from that

Country song


Yet I’ll rest

Knowing I’m still trying, 

striving to be

Me.

That’s all I know to be.


I’m still learning,

Still growing

And I’m here

Hoping God will see…


01/17/25

clc




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