Lyrics, Lamentations & Love Songs*

‘You are the God  Who sees me’ You pierce the dark within You know my inhibitions  You know exactly when My heart is hurting You know when the enemy Has me ready to tumble You see when I face defeat Yet, I still try to hide And find my own way Through the storms I forget your name Thinking ‘I can do this’  In my arrogance  Feel like I’m being brave You wait You always patiently wait  And when I finally wither Find my footing is all but gone Realize you’ve been beside me Walking the path Waiting for me to call You wait You see me And you stay  And in this life  I’ve travelled There is only one truth I’ve known  It is the presence Of your spirit Always there  To guide me home Even when home Seems like some  Distant (Disney) fantasy I know there is something Out there Waiting for me You wait To guide me home. 08/30/25 clc “She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One ...

I’m here I haven’t gone anywhere I swear I just don’t understand What’s your plan? Tired of crying Pools along the floor I try to be hopeful Or maybe it’s the child in me Wanting more I know it’s not the end of me But that doesn’t mean I’m not facing the enemy You told me To love and to be kind And I still try… But I’m so tired The weight scares me Couldn’t sleep I know you are here Could you please ‘Think of me’ Feel forgotten Unless I match their plans And old wounds reopen  Long forgotten Now stand Right in front of me Would you bring a little relief? Please. 08/28/25 clc

The only thing that’s certain Other than the sun breaking night sky Is the assurance that is found  Knowing you’ll be by my side And just like clouds often shadow The rays that warm my face I have to put my faith In this thing you call your Grace The answers are sometimes clear As if you are speaking right in my ear But many times your whisper comes In the midst of all my fear And I have to dig deep To find the hope you’ve given me Not that it lie hidden You don’t play man-sized games You ask me to trust To stop and simply pray I know I try But I often still ask “Why?” Why am I so feeble? Why do I feel this pain? Why do I doubt you When you’ve rescued me over and over again? Because I still  often don’t see As if the sun didn’t rise and I lack belief Please, I am here And I need you  Desperately. 08/27/25 clc

See a firefly as the night sky Falls fast  upon the day  Stars are waiting,  Anticipating  to paint the sky  Under moon’s sway  The heat subsides  Ready for last light to fade and drift away… 08/24/25 clc

Search my heart And know the answers Before I can form the words You’re aware through every trial Of the places I hide my hurts The scars run deep Yet you keep Showing up when I’d rather hide There’s so much tenderness inside That I’d rather keep to myself You persist  Won’t let go when I  don’t even want help I’d rather hide You come right beside Wake up As I often do Slow moving Spirit feels slightly blue But the melancholy  I feel Isn’t make believe  It’s so real And you’re patient and kind With the heart that  often feels left behind Alone in my own skin You won’t allow me  to sink again  Even when I’ve tried Through a million tears cried You know my heart More than anyone You ‘know there’s good’ Even as I want to run From hurt, from pain From the manmade church You won’t leave me I know you’ve heard This fear, These thoughts  So many times I just want you to know I’m broken inside And need you here With me As I begin A new day Know me I pray....

Prayed ten times Ten times no word “Keep on praying” That’s what I heard From that country preacher In that little church “Go on, keep asking” Even though I thought it absurd How could my little voice Be recognized By the creator  Of the stars and skies? Answers never came Turned my back on those beliefs Until I was desperate And would finally do anything  You see, just asking Is never enough Need a kernel of faith When you lift that question up Nothing more than believing That your words Will find the ears of a God Bigger than your hurt Don’t need To be polished or pure Just a heart That’s endured Time seems desperate In our human eyes But it is infinite To the maker of those same skies So I prayed Once again This time longing For an end And it was granted But not the way I thought Everything changed And I was given  This thing called hope Out of a prayer I’d prayed so many times Came a journey That opened my eyes Yes, I still struggle I still face some of that same pain...

You didn’t  make it hard You gave us eternity And we just broke your heart You didn’t say -  “I curse you still” When we keep finding reasons  to turn from you And forget to Be still You didn’t make the day this way When tears run like a river You didn’t make the pain But I still wish You’d help me understand Why it hurts so hard As I’m trying to  Hear your plan But that’s the doubt in me Instead of hearing you I’m still stuck in my Pity party  I know you’re here I know you are I’m just trying so damn hard To breathe Please… Show me. 08/18/25 clc

In the morning  In the quiet As the world  Is still asleep Let me hear you And as I listen Help guide me And keep  My path straight As I journey on Through mountains high Or rivers below Winding staircases  Of stone and steel Lead my footsteps And help reveal Your heart Let me soak it up Here amidst the worry Shine down your love On me And help me be A light shining  So others can see The day will have troubles But I’ll rest among The hope you’ve given My heart’s love song And let me come At end of day Back to where My heart can say Thank you For everything You’ve given me. 08/15/25 clc

The father says “listen Let me tell you where to go  I know you’ll find a path  And at times wander ‘to and fro’  But if you’ll hear me,  Listen to my voice  I promise I can make it easier  It just takes a choice  And that may sound simple  In fact, it really is  Except the world doesn’t want you  To know that peace exists  So I tell you  As you travel down the road  Know you can always call out  And I’ll be there, ready to show  Days can be hard  Nights can be cold  But let me remind you  That I never let you go  And one day down that road  You’ll stand back in front of me  And I’ll open my arms  And say,  ‘Come to me’ Cause you’ll be home!” 08/14/25 clc

You are steady As the mountains shake around me  I see the seas You tame them with a word  I feel the quake  As the Earth feels like it’s falling  You whisper  “I am all you need” I am tired  You cover me like a blanket  Under the stars  I rest amidst the tapestry  You hold me up  As I’m crumbling deep inside  Drying my eyes “You are all I need” Rain clouds hide your light  Take a breath,  Reach deep inside  And know You are there “You are all I need.” 08/12/25 clc “Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the Lord, who has compassion on you.” Isaiah‬ ‭54‬:‭10‬ ‭NIV‬‬

It’s always hard To let him go Knowing time Slips through my hands And he continues to grow I can’t stop time I just take what I can Hoping someday He’ll understand My love Isn’t about proximity It’s about two hearts Knowing they will see Each other again Will he be as tall as I am When he’s a man? Will those piercing eyes look beyond circumstance And know inside I am Here. 08/11/25 clc

Why am I sad, Burdened When there’s no tragedy That’s hurting Why is the weight  Upon my soul So heavy this morning I don’t know? Feel I can’t breathe Please rescue me  Why do I see clouds Amidst the sunshine It’s heavy this morning About to cry There’s nothing ‘wrong’ But I still know The press upon  My soul Just won’t relent This is where I’m at Trying to listen Breathe deeply Pray, “Dear God Complete me” I just don’t know Why I struggle When there’s no Reason to be That’s just me… “Help me, Please” 08/10/25 clc

Shed  All that binds us As the wind blows Through the trees Hear  Our spirits rise up To be known To live To breathe Take This yoke And lay it  On the road of suffering Open Hearts to heaven  As voices Rise to sing A Melody Crisp and clear Rising up For all to Hear We sing We shout  We lay Our burdens down We worship As we see Heaven in the joyful  little things And believe  There is more For us to see… 08/09/25 clc “that, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old self, which is being corrupted in accordance with the lusts of deceit, and that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.” Ephesians‬ ‭4‬:‭22‬-‭24‬ ‭NASB1995‬‬

Will you stop the rain? Seems like it’s 40 days My heart just comes a flood  Oh, I wish you would Stop the rain… Would you please bring the stars?  It’s kind of cloudy,  can’t see where you are  But I know you don’t remain  Up in some castle, so far away  I know the place Where I can see your face Would you bring the sun?  In my heart, I know there’s one  Bigger than that ball in the sky  Helps warm my heart, inside  Would you calm my fears?  Give rest to these familiar tears  There’s still a little pain  But it’s better, you’ve given  time and again  The remedy It dwells inside my heart,  Inside of me  08/04/25 clc

I held you first as you leapt forth Needing to be heard My world stopped As they handed you To me Upon your birth  I held you Falling in love  So quick, so deep Before I knew you It was like part  of me was asleep Watched you grow So quickly, and It came as no surprise How alert you were Like stars danced in the light Found in your eyes Crawling turned to climbing Exploring your new universe I watched and found myself lost In each step As you traversed I’ve watched you Through the years I find I miss you More than you know And my heart aches When I think too much Of how you’ve grown You amaze me With your thoughts And your eyes still dance like the night As if God knew there was more And I hope soon I can find The time to tell you a story About the maker of all good things Who gave me a boy  Ten years ago That has a piece of me Tied up with heartstrings 08/03/25 clc

I know  How fragile I am under the stars And in each day I’m learning How truly big you are  And though  I sit in quiet At the beginning of my day My soul is restless, Desperate  Needing you as I pray  You may  know the plans  You see the path I’ve walked  and where I’ve been I see My defiance I see my hurts I see my sin And you Seem to never give up When I  Have long fell short And feel I’m whooped And though  I know the verses, I can find meaning in the lines I still quake inside  Thinking I’m too small, insignificant  For you to find  Yet you know When I shed these tears And somehow  In the back of my mind I hear… “I love you My creation  Stop listening to the lies You’ve seen my love In action In the stillness Clear your mind  I am here. I am always here.” And I breathe, Taking the moment To believe. I still feel small But my hope Is built on Knowing through it all… I’m not alone. 08/01/25 clc ““What man...